Race For Life

I was so proud of myself yesterday. I had been up all night as usual (I have this thing these days where I fall asleep after dinner and wake up by about 11 or 12 pm and stay up till about 7; I usually write during this a insomniac period.) and when it was dawn I began to feel sleepy. It did not help that it was raining. I knew I had to get my workout done but the last thing I wanted was to use a dvd. It had occurred to me to jump rope but the rain was a problem... The bed was looking and feeling so attractive

  I decided to dress up in my workout gear as the first step towards getting off my butt. ( I love being in my workout gear and exercising. First of all I always try to pick out smart, attractive gear and shoes. And all that makes me feel strong and sexy when I work out. I think that is part of why I like working out because I have little opportunity to feel sexy otherwise, these days. After that I decided to brave it outside and see if I could skip on the ground in front of my house, if it wasn't slippery. I could and so I did a bit of skipping for about 10 minutes. this encouraged me to go for a run. I remembered that I had a waterproof parka I had bought on one of my journeys  so I wore that over my gear and went for a run, I was quite impressed that I had done about an hour and I didn't even know until I looked at my iPod. I came back home and did some lower body workouts with weights before my body decided it was done.

The body is capable of so much, we just have to tame the mind.

Where I Am

So I have been struggling with my mind and going for my one hour walks lately. I think I am in need of a little visual motivation. My last walk was about 40 minutes although I ran quite a bit, but I could tell my mind wasn't in it. Another issue that has been difficult for me is controlling my portions and my eating. I find myself ravenous and gluttonous. I think part of the issue is the fear of falling ill as I was a while back. Another part of the problem is not being able to afford or access readily the things I really should be eating ( healthy food); and the last bit is I am seriously avoiding hunger as it makes me sad. Closely related to my struggle with exercise was the incident between me and a former client who tried to change our agreement then accused me of being inflexible and called off the contract. It was not her I was worried about as much as whether I would be able to keep any job...
To get back on track I must try to recall why I started exercising. The primary reason is I wanted pheromones. And for a while it was working; I come back home pumped and excited. But ever since I realised how it could be dnagerous for me to walk with my iPod and headphones I havent enjoyed the walks as much. I think that is why I run, actually.Swimming is another sport I enjoy but I cannot afford to go regularly at the moment. Training DVDs bore me silly, though I hear they are very effective.
I also went in the hope that I could lose some excess weight. That is not going so well, though as I am eating like my life depended on it.
Going forward, I must take these steps to ensure I stay motivated
1.  Read stories of those who managed to lose weight using DVDs (like Chioma of My Reborn Hair).
2. Read weightloss stories
 3. Switch up the exercise as often as possible
 4. Add more songs to your iPod and change your route
5. Whether you are controlling portions or not try to stop eating by 6